Why don't I cease to warp my mind. Create alternate realities to events past and work myself up for something that isn't real, basing life on "What ifs" killing myself from the inside. Over and over scenarios play in my head trying to figure out something that isn't there maybe, I'm just trying to get away from what really here and going somewhere darker. These thoughts won't go away all of this won't cease to hurt me and it all won't cease to burn my core.
This is headaches and migrains become my bestfriends and don't want to leave me alone, this is when a quick suffering could make all pains end. This kills me yet I'm still walking along I keep playing mind tricks on myself just to feel something, To feel my hearbeating and hear my head pounding all for nothing truth said, this only brings me pain yet I can't stop. In my thoughts, all is worst then it really is. Or maybe... warning of what to come.
